Just When I Thought...

Just when I thought I had finally made (sort of) a decision about my real estate career, something has to come up to make me second-guess that decision. I hadn't planned on going in to the office today, really, instead focusing my time on my writing, but for some reason I was compelled to go in and get a few things taken care of (faxing my publication to my mom, getting materials for my open house this weekend, etc.) I wound up running into Susan and talking with her for well over an hour. We had gone so far as to even discuss starting up our own businesses when we finally decide real estate was a bummer of a career. I really hope that things start looking up for her - she is such a good person and a hard worker and so dedicated, yet she deals with even more flakes than I do! Plus, she's got more expenses than me, lives alone, and has all manner of medical issues. Every time I start feeling sorry for myself, I think about how much more she has to face, and how she almost always has a "never say die" attitude (today notwithstanding).

So just as I was about to leave, I ran into Rosie, my qualifying broker (QB). To my concern, she asked me to come into her office and sit down. Eep, thinks me, because they've told us that the only time they'll have us really meet with them is if they wonder what's happened to us and are concerned about our progress. WELL, turns out that my future QB Connie actually asked her if I could transfer to her office now, before I even have my graduation qualifications completed!! I guess it's extremely rare for them to do something like this, and Rosie decided to ask me my thoughts on the matter. The two of them are extremely impressed with me and have really high confidence that I'm about to break through for some reason. I didn't know what to say! I mean, if they had any idea how conflicted I've been feeling about this whole thing lately, I don't know if they'd be so confident in me. That and the fact that I'm so burned out at this point that I really don't think I'm living up to the expectations they have for me. I am really good about being positive on the surface and seeming like I'm putting forth more effort than I think I actually am...maybe I really do, or maybe I'm a good actress! Regardless, I'm flattered about their high view of me. I decided to decline the early transfer because I feel so comfortable at the training center (heck, I'd stay there with my pals forever, if that were feasible), and I feel that jumping ship too early would be detrimental in the long run. (Plus they have all the free brochures and stuff there...hehe.)

In other news, the reason I wanted to just write today stems from a very memorable dream I had last night. It was one of those weird ones that actually has a start and a finish and plays just like a movie...so much so that I decided it could actually BE a movie! It was really bizarre...about a bush baby named Kinkajou (go fig!) that steals people's eyes. It had a twist ending and everything! I probably wouldn't go see the movie (unless I actually shot it myself) just because I'm so grossed out by eye scenes, but I think it could work, as a short film at least...maybe a comedy! So working on that on top of actually reading my multiple screenwriting books and writing up my other ideas (so many ideas!!), I have my work cut out for me!! Hopefully they'll be decent works. Screenwriting is so awkward compared to prose. Still, I think I can make it work!!

And that's life 'til now!! I'm going to try cooking a full meal tonight for my second time EVER!! Let's hope it goes smoothly!! Talk to you later!!